pulling the plug

i cannot do this anymore.

call me demanding but i knew what it was like but a fortnight ago and now it's not like that. and i can't fool myself into thinking that this is alright and what we have will do for now because it won't. even though the alternative is unthinkable.

i am a woman and i have what's left of my pride and i will not be treated like this anymore by the man i love with all my heart because surely, no matter how rotten i have been, i deserve better.

and if better means nothing then nothing it has to be.

maybe you met the wrong person, maybe i met the right person at the wrong time. who knows what fate chooses to throw in our direction. but what i know is what we make of it. and what we're making of this, is a sham and i cannot live this lie anymore. even though the truth is Pain.

"maybe we'll meet again in another lifetime,
when we're both cats."
-vanilla sky