aloposige

maybe i created a lil havoc. maybe i stuck my nose where it shouldn't have been. i might even be a lil sorry about it but all i wanna say is i did what i did cause

(A)i was drunk on a bottle and a half of red wine (note to self: alcohol high is wasted when you're making serious adult type decisions)

(B)u know that despite and in spite it all i got your back, babs. i always got your back like you've got mine tho' we'd be the weirdest siamese twins to ever walk this earth

(C)i made the executive decision that no man or woman or chink should ever wreck your peace

(D)for all the lies i've spun, i speak the truth. the whole truth, even the ones you can't handle.

i love you morhpinester... u and muscato! : )

apa maksud lu......

i really really wish people won't push my buttons. really. not because i can't handle it but because i pity them. the repercusssion is shit ugly. i get really really horribly mean and cutting and horrible and awful and mean, did i mention mean? i know where it hurts and how to make it hurt and if u take me there i have no qualms whatsoever inflicting pain on you. and i don't do half shots and i don't regret and i don't hold back. i don't like myself when i'm like that but while i'm at it i'll relish every second of it.

yes, i've been told. i have anger management issues.

i don't like bullshit and AKU BUKAN PEREMPUAN BODOH! so please don't think you can try and fool me into thinking something is something else. please go sell your sob story to a third rate tabloid cause i'm not in the market for melodramatic crap.

eeeee...... geramnyer.....

and they call us crazy, babs.... abih orang2 ni semua apa seh...

i gotta a feeling...

doo dee doo dee doo....

i warned you, didn't i? you won't like it if i did. you won't like it one bit. cause i don't know how not to go full steam ahead down the ravine. it's never half past six in weyville. so i guess there's nothing left for you to do but watch as i do the full monty for all and sundry to see. and if the mood suits me, i might throw a thong in your direction.

smack THAT!

something BOOMZZ you know

you should know by now i don't cope or deal
i rant and i vent
and i pay revenge
the course of action is definitely something
that you will rebuke and i will regret
maybe i'll break maybe i'll run
maybe i'll steal lie cheat or kill
maybe definitely i'll do something stupid
maybe we'll fix it
maybe not
right
now i don't really fucking care

i'm gonna make you sorry i lost a night's sleep

a roll in the hay is a roll in the hay, ho hey!

it's nights like these that make me wish that babs is just a door away and i can just pop over and skate my way to oblivion.

it's so tiring to keep convincing myself to be stronger than i actually am and to stick to my guns and to pretend the temptations are not... well, tempting.

maybe i did not think this through. (oh what's new!) maybe it's not right to deprive him of the very things that shaped the relationship. for without sex, drugs and rock and roll, what's left?

the question is, do i then return to the fall i climbed out of and once again roll in the mud to keep him company or do i toss and turn in insomnic paranoia that he's partaking in someone else's wares what i no longer offer. for a rose by any other name, would it not smell as sweet?

as i sleep in the bed i made, is he rolling in her hay, ho hey?

HOW DARE THEY!

"Seorang model pelancongan didenda RM5,000 dan enam sebatan oleh Mahkamah Tinggi Syariah Kuantan selepas mengaku salah meminum arak.

Hakim Syarie Datuk Abdul Rahman Yunus memerintahkan Kartika Sari Dewi Shukarnor, 32, dari Sungai Siput, Perak menjalani hukuman penjara tiga tahun, jika gagal membayar denda itu.

Tertuduh didakwa meminum arak jenama Tiger Beer di Cherating Bay Lounge, Hotel Legend, Cherating kira-kira pukul 11.40 malam pada 11 Julai tahun lepas, laporan Bernama.

Dia didakwa melakukan kesalahan itu mengikut Seksyen 136 Enakmen Pentadbiran Ugama Islam dan Adat Resam Melayu Pahang yang membawa hukuman denda maksimum RM5,000 atau penjara tidak melebihi tiga tahun atau kedua-duanya dan disebat tidak melebihi enam sebatan.

Abdul Rahman dalam penghakimannya berkata mahkamah tidak ragu-ragu dalam menjatuhkan hukuman selepas tertuduh mengaku bersalah ketika didakwa di mahkamah itu pada 1 Disember tahun lepas.

Tertuduh yang dilihat mengalirkan air mata ketika penghakiman dibacakan kemudian memohon penangguhan hukuman untuk rayuan melalui peguamnya, Mohd Zuki Che Mat Ghani.

Pendakwaan dilakukan Timbalan Pendakwa Syarie, Saiful Idham Sahimi."
-malaysiakini.com-

How dare they enact this law on that model when i know for a sure sure fact that the immediate members of the Pahang Royal family INCLUDING the Crown Prince drink and have been spotted drinking at various KL nightspots. and they're not the only culprits, i'm sure the out and about KLites will also tell you that so do members of the Johor Royal family. As for the rest of the other states, i don't know for a sure fact so i dare not say. And apparently according to my sources, ex-pm mahathir mohd rather enjoys his wine too. i find it very sad and pathetically third world of malaysia to impose a law that its own leaders and aristocracy can't uphold. don't get me wrong, i am a muslim and i too acknowledge that it is a sin to consume alcohol but i just don't think it's fair for the administration to go around imposing this law and penalising the commonfolk for 'breaking' it while at the same time turning a blind eye on the same sinful excesses when it's being committed by the ruling elite. IT'S JUST NOT FAIR!!!!!! GRRRR!!!!

oh well, maybe i'm naive... and maybe it IS for the better. afterall, the koran does promise that for whatever sins committed, should you escape justice on earth, judgement awaits in the life hereafter...

so prepare to rot in hell's fire, hypocrites!

that.is.all

i'm off to see the wiz...

oooh.... butterflies in the stomach. haven't had that in a while. i've been away for so long, the thought of my homecoming is making me feel all antsy....

*is it too late for a last minute prayer?*

oh and by the way, Happy 28th SHIDA! one year older and hopefully this time round, wiser.

cheers,
supreme dictator overlord.

abandonment issues.

i don't think "they" really thought it through when "they" came up with the phrase "wild with abandon". does being abandoned drives you to be wild or do you get abandoned because you're wild.

i think when you get abandoned, the stark stillness and the loneliness and aloneless of it all claws at your heart and rends it apart. and your desperate frantic attempt to stop the pain, random and erratic in "their" eyes, gets mistaken for wild.

may he rest in peace, that little grey furball.